when the recession HITS you

so hey whats up guys its been a mintue since i updated so alot as been going on with me lately from boys..to drama and to just a whole bunch of stuff but ok let me just stick too whats on my mind now.. whats on my mind now is what am i going to wear to my friends party. due to the fact that its a recession iam broke beyond measures like its ridicilously crazy.. and i feel like my parents be bitching me to much so am def not asking them. so i feel like my last resort is too make an outfit myself like.. i was thinking about going to burlington tommorow and maybe find ,myself some cute 10 dollar heels am sure i will , well hopefully. but the thing is if i buy these boots then am not gonna have enough money for my tights smh i wish some one cld order them online for me =[ lol... not having a job is so stress ful lol

but yeah am going this morning too seee what i can do.

also i want some stockings like this from forever 21
there only $6.00 so who ever wants to donate them to me hit me up and order them for me online lol =]




anyways am really excited for this party and i cant wait to be reunited with my girlies lol =]
hopefully my outfit is decent enough

GIRLS/HOES

guys that think its ok to led girls on or ok to talk to mad girls but if the girl decides to talk to everyone she is labelized as a hoe, a pop or slut.. ok ok so this is were i jump in first and foremost fuck that bullshit because if you are talking to me and talking to other girls on top of that trust me sweetie am going to have my fun and talk to whoever i want. i feel its ok to do this your obligated to mingling around thats why they say single ready to mingle. unless you are in a relationship and your fucking around with others then thats when you know you have an issue.

also this word hoe slut or whatever it maybe... is a word that is not used right how is a girl a hoe because she gives her man head. like thats her fucken boyfriend she could do whatever she wants with him. my definition of a hoe is a female.. who screws a different guy everyday! like come on mami get it together cant you stick too one? but then again you cant blame her because what if the boys that she runs into hit it and leave? then what is she to do... is she suppose to sit there and pout and cry about it .. no shes not shes suppose to move the fuck on.. and if her way of moving the fuck on is fuckin every guy that comes her way then so be it. its a free country fuck who you want but be prepard for the outcome of it.

DEATH is it A pattern?

hey guys whats up i was just thinking to myself this morning as i woke up to study i was going through youtube watching girl fights ..(i know how corny) but i was watching them because i was looking back and thinking about how i used to fight like that and if i really wanted to go back to my old fighting ways due to the fact iam having problems with this on girl in my church. but anyways as i was going through for some reason i entered R.I.P then a whole bunch of young teenage girls that have died it was so sad to watch :( then i came across aaliyahs tribute and some one posted a comment saying something that really caught my attention so this is what i said about it on my facebook.

"good morning facebookers hey i was going on youtube and this came to my attention why is it that all these stars that were really big influences in the african american community and in the world in general using there music died on this date this is a pattern or a coincidence of when they died James Brown: December 25th Aaliyah:August 25th ,Left Eye: April 25th Michael Jackson: June 25th (this really had me thinking) mhmm.. well they do say God does work in mysterious ways."

this too me is so crazy and its so strange does God really have a pattern for when we will die do we die based on what we do on earth? its just crazy because all of these people are huge stars

well no one knows when God will call them home.. but for the mean time i think we should all evaluate and find ourselves in doing the right thing. GOD can call you today he could call me today but the question is will we be ready to face the Lord in the time of judgment.

R.I.P MICHEAL JACKSON August 29, 1958-JUNE 25,2009




R.I.P LISA LEFT EYE LOPES May 27 1971- APRIL 25, 2002



R.I.P Aaliyah dana HAUGHTON January 16, 1979 – August 25, 2001



R.I.P JAMES BROWN May 3, 1933 – December 25, 2006

reunited with my old step team

ok it was such an amazing experience to be united with my old step team.. my have they come along way. it felt so good walking the streets of my old high school again i love them so much. when i got to the practice it bought back memories of when i used to be on the step team. i was so proud that my lil sister asia was now taking the role as the port richmond steppers captain :)



asia and i :) at her first day as captain :)


as the practice went on.. i began to critic the new steppers on what they needed to improve on. i gave them alot of feed back and they took everything in :) what totally suprised me about the stepteam is that they now have a boy on the team. this boy can really step .. i was in shock because i always wanted them to put a boy on the team and they finally did... the boy is gay but he is the best... i also got to reunite with the girls that i used to step with when i was stilll in highschool NGOZI AND VENICE we spoke about our old steps and how does old steps can benefit the new stepteam. it was definitely a great feeling .. i cant wait to go to more of there prActices :)


(me and brittney)



(me and ngozi)

GOODNIGHT/ MATH CLASS

(not my bed)

ok so am going to bed now! have to wake up and attend college ... i have a 8am to 10am class and its math so you know how math is. like i dont see the point of the fancy stuff they teach you, we arent going to use the fancy stuff in our everyday lives! its just getting people mad and depressed and even struggling way to much

mom STOP askin if am A VIRGIN/ this boy

ok so am actually laying down in my bed right now..thinking about why my mom keeps asking me the same stupid question "are you a virgin" like my mom lets be serious am not going to tell you if i am or not. like my mom is so strange then she goes am not going to open up your bank account if you don't tell me! am like geesh tell you what... shes like just tell me the truth and like she just kept on going on and on like stop baffling me.




anyways enough of that let me talk about something that has been on my mind all day today like ok. theres this kid and i really like him , but i told myself that i wasnt going to get attached or anything like that because i wouldnt want to deal with heartache at the end of it all. so am like ok ok watever we made out once and it was really good (lol) and before we did that we were mad cool.. now i feel like he doesnt hit me up on my cell or on aim or Anything anymore. LIKE am not trying to sound jealous but how you just throw me in the corner like a shadow out of no were? smh! thats why i have been telling myself not to fall for any guy right now, because honestly i think all guys ... i dont care how sweet he maybe has that male mindset that they could talk to a dozen girls and toy with there minds smh! but now am just like am going to play the game the same way guys do!